Sorry, the whole list what you eat thing was getting pretty dull there, and probably was quite poor reading. The diet is still on though, and the measurement this morning said that I've now lost 6 out of my 57 pound-target! Go me!

Its basically fruit or healthy snack bar for breakfast, salad lunch, mid-afternoon snack of fruit or healthy snack bar again, some tea or coffee or a diet coke, dinner of something salady or low fat, and a small snack later if my tummy is wild, some nuts, a slice of low-fat cheese (one slice, not too big), something like that. Tonight is going to be soup with super-grain bread, which is pretty good I think. Lentil soup, tasty.

Sorry for the gap there, I just got kinda lazy all of a sudden. I also had my 1 week weight in and, guess what? No weight lost! Hmm, and I was really cutting back on everything too.

My theory is this: I've also been exercising more, and when you do that, you gain muscle mass, right? Also, my body was all over the place this week, including most likely a few kicks at Starvation Mode stuff, so who knows how its responded. Also part II, I'm really bad at keeping hydrated, and had a big ol' glass of water right before bed, which will all have been retained overnight for my morning weight-in.

So yeah, obviously I'm going to keep going; I got a bit sloppy with the eating towards the end of the week mostly due to boredom, but never broke 2000 kCals (which is about my upper limit for still counting as dieting), generally being lower. I also failed to climd the Pentlands due to lack of sleep and a smudgen of laziness, but I spent like, 2 hours playing frisbee on Sunday, and went all wandering around Arthur's seat again on Saturday.

Bah, we'll see. If it continues to yield no ersults, I'll start looking at alternative approaches. Yes, including a low-carb Atkins-style diet. It does work, it can be healthy, you don't have to eat steak and cheese all the time.

Where was I? Hmm, last night kind of ended with a "Come round and watch Buffy" "But its 1 am" "But I'll give you some wine" "Oh OK" kind of affair. This was after eating deliberately salted nuts because I hadn't had enough salt in my diet and my muscles felt funny. So I was up til 3:30 and saw some classic old Buffy Season 1 eps (the one with the dummy, the one with the evil internet boyfriend).

Woke up at 10 am because I wasn't sure if I should be working at the shop today - I wasn't, so all was well. Some WoW playing, then off to get lunch and climb about on Salisbury Crags with Sammy. Such an amazing day for it, and what's more I was totally able to fly my ickle kite about, which was very pleasing. total of 2.5 mile walk, but with changes of elevation for more calorie expenditure and cardio-ness.

Then lunch at the Auld Hoose - Thai fish cakes, a small amount of rice (it wasn't great rice) and a Pint of OJ. Not too bad at all I'd say, and I feel pretty happy at the moment, physiologically. Psychologically I'm pleased about going up Arthur's seat so much because its keeping the little bit of fitness I got from the Arizona stuff, but I need more impact. Tomorrow (or Sunday ) I may well go up and round Salisbury crags, and then up the back of Arthurs Seat and over to the front to complete the circuit, to make it more of a work out.

Today was better than yesterday, due in part to getting some goddamn sleep. I also ate more, which is apparently a good thing, though it still feels all bass-ackward.
( Food I ate today )Total was about 1750 kCals, which is about what I'm supposed to be aiming for. I'm still bloody hungry though so I'll prolly grab some nuts before bad. Maybe a small slice of low-fat cheese. I worry about my salt intake actually, I think its been low due to... not eating any salt. Finishing up the day with some salted nuts. Night all!

Alright, here we go. Bad start: I didn't get to sleep til 2 am. 12 is really hard to manage when you feel like its only 8 or 9 pm. So I was knackered.

I had Muesli with Skimmed milk for breakfast. Later I became ravenously, painfully hungry. Then I had a banana and some tea, and felt better. then I was ravenously, painfully hungry again. For lunch I had a big salad, with a little pasta added for some energy content (learning from yesterday). I got a tummy ache.

Early afternoon, I was about to fall asleep at my desk so I got an espresso - no milk, no sugar. Afternoon snack was a Go Ahead Snack cracker thingy, and some tea, milk no sugar. I felt much better for a bit, then was all hurty tummy again, plus grumpiness and slow working. I finally left, came home and made a chicken curry with Chick peas and Low-fat yogurt, tomato, mushrooms. Forgot to add a stock cube so it was lessened in flavour, but meh.

Total kCal count per my wacky website: 1,226. Still, apparently, not enough. I don't like calorie counting! Its so counter intuitive. Should I go back to my old familiar Atkins? Or at least the slightly more moderate Low GI diet. Protein supresses hunger pangs, carb makes me wacky and tired. Not sure. Will give it another day, since my dieting guru says the first few days are gonna be like a kick in the teeth anyway.

This is odd. I've been a reasonably good girl today, and from the looks of it, I've overdone it. Total calorie consumption including wine and a whisky: 990 kCal. This is just not enough - explains why my head was so muddled earlier on; its a carb crash in a grandé stylee.

I think the simple issue is, am I going low fat or low carb? I basically did both today, which isn't really sustainable. But damn, at least it shows I can do it. Maybe just a little Snack Bar thing or a banana instead of tiny chocolates and a similarly tiny apple.

Anyway, since I've got these scales, innacurate as they are, I'll revise my start weight upwards appropriately to 257lb. By the way, my target weight at 200lb is still classed as obese. Whoopdy doo.

Bought scales. They instantly added a stone on to me frm 3 weeks ago, so either they're broken or I'm about to die explosively. Since a body builder gauged that I'd lost weight since I'd last seen him yesterday (about the same period of time) I figure the scales are to blame. Waste of £8 :(

Holiday candy: I did okay resisting this, 2 Hersheys Kisses with almond and about a third of a carmel candy thing. Almost negligible (right?)

Lunch: Salad bar - rocket, 3 bean salad, and some sort of uncooked stir-fry veggies with chilli sauce thing, plus general salad veg.

Snacks and beverages: an espresso w/ sugar (!) but not much; a royal gala apple. Intending a handful of pecans later one.

And dinner will theoretically be a chicken breast with salad, Oh, I should go marinade that so it doesn't bore me to death with its lack of flavour. After that, the ultimate challenge: going to a real ale pub and not drinking beer. Might have a glass of white wine instead - its low carb, you know.

Thanks to all with the words of encouragement! I'll start tracking my weight once I've got some kind of relevant measurement. And if I fail... please don't hate me, 'kay?

Success: Getting up early enough to have breakfast. Omlette w/ green pepper and a small sprinkle of low-fat cheese.

Failure: getting to bed by 12 last night. Jet lag is my enemy, as is the internet. 1 am it was, naughty Shevy. Found a website to keep track of food & target weight stuff on though. Must buy scales!

Okay, here we go. I've promised my Dad I'll start doing something about my diet and general weight, and he will as well. He's actually fine, just not quite the Tarzan figure of previous years, and he misses that which is totally reasonable

( Anyway, back to me.  )

And, of course, I'll have to buy some scales. Wish me luck! I'll try to update my LJ with details as I go. Public exposure and the fear of judgement (tsk tsk) are good motivators. Starting weight, and my biggest shame: 252 lb (approx)

Oh god. Now you all know. I guess I'd better get a move on.